just grabbed a cpy of STARSTUDIO magazine(july 2004). it is soooo HOT! Marvin Cruz and Jemal Vizcarra half naked and Atom Araullo all in one issue? what more could i ask for? hehe. ------- i really think that suicide is a very stupid move. life is so precious. no offense ment. i mean there are a lot of people who pays a lot of money for them just to live on (ei. cancer patients and the likes). really, too bad. --------- hindi narin ba naglalaro si jacob manlapaz para sa up? hmmm ... maybe i should be more loyal to my school. looks like mas marami pa akong alam ng kwento tungkol sa maroons! go ust! --------- just finished watching the movie kate and leopold. i would like to thank my 'anak' jenny for lending me a vcd. the movie is sooooooo romantic!

leopold is the perfect gentleman! he's so perfect! i admired hugh jackman so much. he played the part so well. he's so cute! far more different from his 'xmen mutant' image. cool. i wonder when my leopold would come?

barney and friends

I love you You love me We're a happy family With a great big hug And a kiss from me to you Won't you say you love me too? ---- again, this is a personal therapy entry. journaling has been a great help for me since i'm  not that vocal and i prefer to express myself through writing. a letter for the person who bugged me so much that it irritated me to the point that i wanted to kill that person ... hey, f*** you! ok, that was a good start. you know what? wait, you know nothing. you just pretend to know something or all the things but in reality, you know nothing. here's the reason why you irritates me so much.  you suck. we all know na your true color. you're one of those people who can't even keep a damn simple secret. you really suck! those things that you kept on telling us, guess what... we don't give a damn! we don't care about those stories. we don't care about you. quit telling things that's only related to you. you selfish b****. and oh, personally, i won't consider you as a friend. i so hate you. i really hope you can read this letter.  for goodness' sake, change your bit**y attitude. for your goodness' sake. i don't wanna spend my college life with you. that's so scary. so damn scary. Get a LIFE. --------- I love you You love me We're best friends Like friends should be With a great big hug And a kiss from me to you Won't you say you love me too?

version 10 na!

new layout ulit. 10th version. less scrolls. less complicated. whatyathink? anyways, i would like to greet my ever beloved friend JEFFREY a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! langya! tumatanda ka na! i am really looking forward for that buko pie. hehe. just kidding. nothing much. prelims next week and i have loads to do. wish me luck! :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY ULIT! ----------- just finished reading inquirer: sports section. i'm really sorry to hear about larry fonacier's condition. Eventually, during admu's game with up, e tore both the anterior cruciate ligament(ACL) and medial collateral ligament (MCL) of his left knee. translation: he has to take the rest of the season off.  It will normally takes him 6 months to recover. sayang. he has the potential pa naman for the MVP title. really frustrating.  read the story here. --------- kailan kaya ako makakapanood ng UAAP live? i'm really really really looking forward for that talaga.  poor me.

mr deeds poem

monday again and i have to go to school... again. anyways, last night i watched the movie mr. deeds in HBO. and i was kinda attracted to the poem that deeds gave to babe. i've been serching for a copy ever since and i can't find one! help! somebody... the poem was teriffic. so sweet. the last line goes like this: " now i know how it feels to fall in love" help ... hehe

whoa! lotsa sign!

This morning, i turned on my television to watch breakfast in studio 23. eh diba sa breakfast, there're different host every episode. so i asked God for a sign. "pag lumabas si Atom Araullo, ma e-excempt kami sa finals" commercial break. then i waited a couple of seconds. patty laurel was there. i got really pissed off because of that long interview that's why i turned it off na, forgetting the 'sign'. then i went down and turned on the tv again. guess what? yup, atom araullo was there. i don't know if it's just a mere coincident but... EXEMPTED KAMI SA FINALS SA LITERATURE! every single thing that i sacrificed for this reporty really paid off! it's all worth it. we got a 98%. all the glory goes up to HIM. i think the report went well (we won't get exempted if it doesn't). peace out to my groupmates who were 'priviledged' enough to enter our humble home: angela, clang, joseph and my anak jenny. and rafael too! he sponsored joseph's outfit.  i'm really gonna start na my term paper for philo! promise!:)

getting close with william and pablo...

o crap! we have a reporting tomorrow for lit class! what's 'so' special about it? we only have a couple of days to prepare. damn. here's the deal. if our report will be perfect or whatever, that it would impress ma'am, we don't have to worry about our finals. the sad thing was we were 'scheduled' to report AFTER the prelims. then again, we were rescheduled! ( personally, i don't get the idea of why we have to schedule everything when we change it naman every now and then). the idea for perfect presentation suddenly evaporated into thin air. arg. fortunately, madali naman ang topic namin. william shakespeare and pablo neruda(weird, i kept on interchange his name with paolo coelho). really cool poets. arg! wish us luck! may everything turned out just right, if not perfect! :) oh, by the way, new layout! more eye-friendly, if you ask me!  

spideyman-y

i am so outdated already! i haven't watched the spiderman 2 yet!      i am not really a big fan of spiderman(unlike how i am with LOTR) . i even watched the 1st movie a couple of years after it was 1st shown in the big screen.   but ralph and rafael told me that the 2nd one was better that the 1st. nakakaiyak daw!   i have no time kasi   in watching movies pa  . honestly speaking, i am really planning on watching it tomorrow. but as usual, academic stuffs call. we have a long quiz in philo, again, on monday. please pray for me, i know it could help! :)   last resort: maybe i should wait for it nalang sa  HBO. while i was searching for a spiderman pics, i came across this one (it's cute that's why i decided to feature this one) . pretty hilarious, ei? baygon lang pala ang katapat ni spiderman!  hehe. *edited: i removed na the pics coz of mu new lay out. check it out here

english mode...again... and again...and...

ok, i'm shifting again to my english blogging mode.  i came up with 3 reasons:

1. i suck in writing in english. i'm not really used in writing in the said language because most of my works were written in tagalog.  blogging is a good medium for me to practice my english writing skill.
2. after a long time in blogging in english, i already get the hang out of it.
3. i recieved more comments when my posts were in english. i guess some people love the language!(kidding!)

so, get use to it already! you'll be accompanied by my typo and grammatical errors again. this time, there are more of them! bwuhahaha!

astig

this day was a blast! ang lupit!   kanina, ginanap ang 'fresh'. free gig sya para sa mga freshmen ng UST.  tumugtug ang Truefaith at MYMP. lufet ng tugtugan. napatunayan kong sobrang dami pala talagang rakista sa UST. di lang masaydo halata.  sarap ng slam-an. parang nailabas ko lahat ng pagod ko sa mga nakaraang panahon.   ang kaso, di ko napanood ang mymp! waha! galing kong bata no?   kasi sobrang umpisa palang, moshpit kaagad. eh nasa unahan kami kaya nakikimoshpit narin ng konte. hehe. eh napagod kami, nagkayayaan sa mcdo. pagkabalik, tapos na! buhay...   anyways,  may 'instant' reunion na naman kami.  nung nasa mcdo ako, nagtext si kuya rj at sabi nya meet daw kami. ako naman, tanga, hinintay naman sya kahit dala ko ang halos buong klase. astig naman. di naman sya nagalit kahit ilang linggo na sakin ang parker pen nya. hehe. saya.   tapos bumalik nga kami uste(at pagdating namin dun, uwian na). nakasalubong naman namin sina anna at cielo. tapos nakita namin si dimples at clarissa. reunion talaga   astig talaga.   namiss ko nanaman tuloy si abu na kakikita ko lang nung isang araw. kasi pagka tinotopak kami nun, bigla nalang makikipag slamdance sakin. siguro yun yung dahilan kaya naimmune nako sa mga pangyayari kanina. astig.   ----------   may banda na'ko!(iba ulit to. hindi ito yung kay dave). basta! final na! hanap nalang kami song. blog ko later kasi inaantok nako.   --------   may meeting ang Class Represantatives bukas. nakakaasar. akala ko pa naman, makakatulog ako. pagod kasi, tapos... arg. siguro stay nalang ako library bukas. may workshop pa kami sa Flame ng 4. ayaw kong tumira sa ust.   --------- whoa! iba ang blogger ngayon ah! asensado.

si bonn, baw

ka chat ko si bonn ngayon sa yM. akalain mong nag dreadlocks daw sya? naalala ko pa namang sinabi nya na hindi sya mag dre-dreadlocks magpakailan pa man! tapos, minumulto na sya sa educ building! hala! bakit ako, di pa nimumulto sa ab? ibig ba sabihin nun maiingay lang talaga ang mga tao sa building at nabubulabog ang mga esprito't umalis at lumipat nalang sa educ building? hala! ---------- bukas (or mamaya) na ang heritage walk ng mga freshmen. di ko nga sure kung makakapunta ako. GA kasi ng Tunorg. tapos jologs pa ng outfit na kailangang isuot. nakakaasar. tapos sa hapon, MYMP at True Faith! sayang naman yung gig kaya balak ko ding pumunta. sabi ni bonn, pwede daw magdala ng outsider. hehe. --------- arg! really looking forward para sa darating na weekends. promise, sisimulan ko na yung term paper kO! promise talaga!hehe

bad trip!

late na siguro 'to, pero di ako nakapanood ng UAAP! both opening at laro ng ust nung linggo. darn. super nafrustrate ako. minsan na nga lang kami manalo, di ko pa napanood. lucky badang and thousand others whose luck fortunate to purchase a ticket on time. darn. eh! umpisa pa lang naman ng season, marami pang araw! anyways, nag text sa 'kin kanina si Dave. here's the flow of the conversation... sya: aika, rakista ka diba? ako: yup. y? sya: alam mo yung sandwich at urbandub? ako: yup. y? ako: pati urbandub? ako: naririnig ko lang. but i'm not a fan. y? sya: ano tingin mo sa bass guitar? ako: bass ng urbundub or bass guitar per se? sya: bass guitar ( yup. magulo talaga takbo ng utak nitong si dave. peace!) ako: astig. lalo na sa kamikazee. lupit ng bass nila! di ko na matandaan yung mga exact words. pero the point is niyaya ako ni Dave sa banda nya! kaya lang, bass guitarista. astig yun!mas less complicated kung kumpara sa lead guitar. 4 lang ang strings ng bass. how hard could it be? hehe anyways, pwede nyo mabasa ang istorya ng banda ko dati dito. madrama yun, baka maiyak kayo... lolz siguro nagtataka kayo kung bakit 12:50 na't nagbloblog parin ako? hehe. ewan ko din. malakas loob ko dahil 1pm pasok ko bukas. hehe

tonight, pablo neruda can write the saddest poem

kanina, nag reresearch ako sa library ng poem na 'to. to my dismay, wala akong nakita. as in. kasi ba naman, may isang book doon na merong ganitong poem. tapos nung binuksan ko na sa page na nabanggit, punit. yup. pinilas ng ibang nilalang yung page. i remembered it well. page 30 yung original text (i dunno yung language eh) tapos yung pag 31 na (yung english translation), nawala! page 33 na kaagad! nakakabadtrip! di manlang nila binigyan ng hustisya yung libro. sayang. pero astig yung poem. check this poem out. a masterpiece by pablo neruda Pablo Neruda - Tonight I Can Write the Saddest Poem Tonight I can write the saddest lines.Write, for example, 'The night is starryand the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.'The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.Tonight I can write the saddest lines.I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.How could one not have loved her great still eyes.Tonight I can write the saddest lines.To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.What does it matter that my love could not keep her.The night is starry and she is not with me.This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.The same night whitening the same trees.We, of that time, are no longer the same.I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.Another's. She will be another's. As she was before my kisses.Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.Love is so short, forgetting is so long.Because through nights like this one I held her in my armsmy soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.Though this be the last pain that she makes me sufferand these the last verses that I write for her.translated by W.S. Merwin

frustrated UAAP addict.

para sa mga concern, malamang isa lang yun, okie na ang pakiramdam ko. di ako tinablan ng kulam. hehe. pero nakaka frustrate kasi since masama talaga ag lagay ko these past few days, parang naging unproductive ng buhay ko within that period of time. wala pa nga akong nagagawang tula para sa workshop namin bukas. wala talaga sa kundisyon ang utak ko sa pagiisip. yup, meron akong natapos na isang tula, pero sobrang corny. kaya i e-enhance ko nalang muna bago ko pakita sa kanila. sobrang CORNY talaga. di halatang broken hearted ako. :( anyways, HINDI AKO MAKAKAPANOOD NG UAAP OPENING! arg. andami kasing ginagawa! ang plano ko, nood lang ako ng opening per se tapos tuloy ako sa ust ng mga 3:30 para sa workshop namin sa flame. kaya lang, bigla akong tinamad bumyahe kasi ala akong kasama. di ako sanay mag commute ng ako lang. asar talaga. balak ko naman manood sa sunday since laban ng ust 1st game. tapos dlsu-admu 2nd. kaya lang, baka maubusan ako ng ticket kaya wag nalang ulit. pati may reaction paper pakong dapat tapusin sa philosophy. * pahabol. sabi sa'kin ng butihin kong pinsan na 'sold-out' na daw ang ticket para bukas. hay. buhay nga naman. lalo akong na frustrate...

may sakit?labsik?noT!

sobrang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko! akalain mong tinatablan pa pala ako ng sakit ng katawan. pero at least, alam kong tao ako at pinapasok pa pala ng viruses ang katawan kO! hehe anyways, PASADO AKO S PHILO! pasado ako sa 1st quiz. i'm still alive! pero hindi talaga ako contended sa grade ko. kasi ba naman, kung ano yung inaral ko, yun yung di lumabas sa quiz. tapos, ang hindi ko inaral, lumabas naman. nakakaasar. but of course, PHILOSOPHY is something that's difficult to define. blah blah blah. (f*ck, naduduwal nanaman ako. sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko. i have a cold pa! pano na yung concert ko! lolz) i can't think of anything right now. badtrip ako. kanina pang umaga. sa anong dahilan? ewan. arg.

SAT review

kabubukas ko lang ng friendster. may nag PM sakin. akala ko pa naman, gobyerno na't ibabalitang magpapakabait na ang buong pilipinas. si meckie pala. here's the message: "ei, kasama daw po tau sa mag22ro 4 sat review for the 4th year students..may miting dis coming friday, 6:30 pm. attend u kc kailangan lang po talaga...pinapasabi lang po ni ate emy..kitakitz!!!" Holy cow! di ko ma-imagine ang sarili kong nagtuturo sa kanila. ano naman ang ituturo ko? pgc? naalala ko tuloy ung sat review namin nung Hs na intended para sa UPCAT na nagamit ko ng masinsinan sa USTET. boogie. i hate saturday classes so much eh. arg should i go? sige, go ako pagka sinipag ako. or tapos na ang mga gawain. hmmm ... iba na talaga ang in demand!*peace sign* PS. feeling ko lalagnatin ako. sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko! pero di pa'ko pwede matulog dahil may paper works pa sa english. pero dahil mabait at masunurin akong bata, inuna ang blogging. lupit! ayun nga. feeling ko, lalagnatin ako. wag naman sana. (but come to think of it, kapag nagkasakita ko, mapapatunayan kong tao talaga akO! kasi hindi ko na matandaan kung kelaN ako huling nagkasakiT! pramis! weird ko talaga!)

new layout. new...

NOTE: i'm doing another major renovations. NEW LAYOUT. and i'm switching to my usual 'tagalog mood' again. ANG KASUNOD NYO NA PONG MABABASA EH TAGALOG NA MAY KONTING ENGLISH. TAGLISH. WHATEVER... waha! bagong layout. tagal ko na palang hindi nakakapag palit ng itsura ng site. busy na kasi masyado. pangit nga 'to eh. temporary lang yan. kaya pakisabi nalang sa mga mata mata nyo na konting tiis muna. anyways, wag kalimutang mag sign sa guestbook ko. kapag nag sign kayo dun, pwede na kayong mabuhay ng mapayapa. :lolz: blog later.

jon jon tabigue

i bought a copy of inquirer today and i was pretty suprised when i saw Jonjon Tabigue in SIM(sunday inquirer magazine). read the article here. nakapanghihinayang. Tabigue was one of my favorite cager in the league(uaap). that's why i was pretty suprised when i heard about his unfortunate condition. he's a lot of potential. pano na ang UP? i also heard (or read) that JayR Reyes also withdrew. for what reason? i don't know. o well, that's life. just help me, and thousand others, to pray for Jonjon.

lit galore

yesterday rocks! the day was filled with literature and laughs. the only thing that sucked about yesterday was when i was obligated to get out of the bed at 6:30. but everything else was so fine. i reached the gates of ust at around 8am. then my walk from the gates to AB building took 5 minutes. so, i so much assumed that i was late. i was wrong. when we arrived at office, nobody else was there except a 1journ3 student. everything's a blast. especially the cool dudes of flame. 1 got home at around 7 or 8pm. blog later. i have to attend to mass na!

saddest part of being a girl...

i was browsing my cellphone a couple of minutes ago for some 'forgotten text messages' when i came across this quotation: "We can never just walk up to a guy and say 'love me the way i want to be loved', you have to wait for him to do it in his own way, at his own time... That's the saddest part of being a girl!" cool ei? exactly my sentiment! arg. tell me, what do you think about the quote?